It was morning around 8.30. The train is now moving through Gujarat, Several thoughts came and passed through this journey similar to the passing railway stations. I was thinking how unstable this human life is. Three months ago I was in Delhi and now going to Ahmedabad. Before six months I got married and within that six months we were together for only around 3 months. I had to move with the situation, take practical decisions and to compromise our needs based on priorities.
Everything has to be build afresh. To find new house, to find new friends and more importantly to find new hopes...... these thoughts were lurking my mind at that time. To have a pessimistic outlook of life will always make you tiring and weak. You will not be able to do anything with that mind set up. Unfortunately, i always had the pessimistic feeling first. Now i know how to change the same. I have started thinking optimistically. Isnt it a new avenue to know new people, their style of life, the new atmosphere etc. Otherwise being in one place for a long time it will make your life monotonous. It will create an inertia in your life making it static.
Actually changing a Bank looked so easy when i received the appointment order. We will see only the positive points of the change and we will be very optimistic at that time. I think a man will reach his superlative degree in being opimistic at that time. Then starts the problems, the tensions, the separations, the feelings and so on. Facing the situation makes you more composed and mature. Before coming to Ahmedabad, I was posted to Delhi for training, I travelled from Bangalore where i was working with my previous bank. Delhi was an entirely new world where i saw change in culture, behaviour of people, quality of life etc. I saw endurance level of people changing. I could see new perspectives of relationships from the good and bad side. Delhi was such busy place where history of India lies, and my three months there has created an attachment with Delhi. My best friend who was working for another Bank was posted in Delhi and hence i had good company also.
On leaving Delhi and moving to Ahmedabad, I had moved about 12 hours nearer to my native place. Native place where ever it is, will pull; that you will feel there is an elastic cord tied between your heart and the home town. I was given an impression by my friends who have earlier worked in Ahmedabad that minor earth quake tremors will be there. This has created a sort of paranoid feeling in me. I was supposed to stay with my friends in Ahmedabad. One of my friend was supposed to come to receive me in railway station also. Yesterday night I received the call. He was not coming to receive me. Being a stranger in a new railway station where i dont know the destination place, created a sort of tension on me. The tension was burdened by my 5 bags of luggage which got accumulated during my Delhi stay.
The train stopped at Ahmedabad Railway station. My co passenger who was from Gujarat, cautioned me that the Auto drivers may charge more if you appear to be a non gujarati and hence you have to be very careful. This added to my tension. I took the help of one railway porter to take the luggage. He landed me straight to an autorickshaw. The auto rickshaw driver demanded Rs. 30 extra for my luggage which seemed genuine for me. He started his race through the roads of Ahmedabad. For some time i was feeling I was sitting in a roller coaster in an amusement park. To add to the effect, he was playing hindi music from Radio Mirchi FM.
I have never moved out from kerala during my entire 28 years of age. Then I started my journey. I reached Bangalore which seemed far for me when i was working in Canara Bank. Now having gone to Delhi and now in Ahmedabad, i have compromised a lot and would love to get a posting in Bangalore. Auto rickshaw driver was helping me in finding my friends house address. It was near judges bungalow road. We found the flat. The driver of the Autorickshaw unloaded the luggage and left taking the amount paid to him. I praised his sense of music and he was very happy with the compliment. Now i was waiting for my friend to come. I dont know where he was and how he looks as i have only talked to him over phone but when i called him over phone, he told he is on the way. Hence i waited in the portico surrounded with my luggage. I was sweating profusely. I was not aware I had landed in Ahmedabad at a time when Sun was at its top form.
Everything has to be build afresh. To find new house, to find new friends and more importantly to find new hopes...... these thoughts were lurking my mind at that time. To have a pessimistic outlook of life will always make you tiring and weak. You will not be able to do anything with that mind set up. Unfortunately, i always had the pessimistic feeling first. Now i know how to change the same. I have started thinking optimistically. Isnt it a new avenue to know new people, their style of life, the new atmosphere etc. Otherwise being in one place for a long time it will make your life monotonous. It will create an inertia in your life making it static.
Actually changing a Bank looked so easy when i received the appointment order. We will see only the positive points of the change and we will be very optimistic at that time. I think a man will reach his superlative degree in being opimistic at that time. Then starts the problems, the tensions, the separations, the feelings and so on. Facing the situation makes you more composed and mature. Before coming to Ahmedabad, I was posted to Delhi for training, I travelled from Bangalore where i was working with my previous bank. Delhi was an entirely new world where i saw change in culture, behaviour of people, quality of life etc. I saw endurance level of people changing. I could see new perspectives of relationships from the good and bad side. Delhi was such busy place where history of India lies, and my three months there has created an attachment with Delhi. My best friend who was working for another Bank was posted in Delhi and hence i had good company also.
On leaving Delhi and moving to Ahmedabad, I had moved about 12 hours nearer to my native place. Native place where ever it is, will pull; that you will feel there is an elastic cord tied between your heart and the home town. I was given an impression by my friends who have earlier worked in Ahmedabad that minor earth quake tremors will be there. This has created a sort of paranoid feeling in me. I was supposed to stay with my friends in Ahmedabad. One of my friend was supposed to come to receive me in railway station also. Yesterday night I received the call. He was not coming to receive me. Being a stranger in a new railway station where i dont know the destination place, created a sort of tension on me. The tension was burdened by my 5 bags of luggage which got accumulated during my Delhi stay.
The train stopped at Ahmedabad Railway station. My co passenger who was from Gujarat, cautioned me that the Auto drivers may charge more if you appear to be a non gujarati and hence you have to be very careful. This added to my tension. I took the help of one railway porter to take the luggage. He landed me straight to an autorickshaw. The auto rickshaw driver demanded Rs. 30 extra for my luggage which seemed genuine for me. He started his race through the roads of Ahmedabad. For some time i was feeling I was sitting in a roller coaster in an amusement park. To add to the effect, he was playing hindi music from Radio Mirchi FM.
I have never moved out from kerala during my entire 28 years of age. Then I started my journey. I reached Bangalore which seemed far for me when i was working in Canara Bank. Now having gone to Delhi and now in Ahmedabad, i have compromised a lot and would love to get a posting in Bangalore. Auto rickshaw driver was helping me in finding my friends house address. It was near judges bungalow road. We found the flat. The driver of the Autorickshaw unloaded the luggage and left taking the amount paid to him. I praised his sense of music and he was very happy with the compliment. Now i was waiting for my friend to come. I dont know where he was and how he looks as i have only talked to him over phone but when i called him over phone, he told he is on the way. Hence i waited in the portico surrounded with my luggage. I was sweating profusely. I was not aware I had landed in Ahmedabad at a time when Sun was at its top form.
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2 comments:
straight from the heart...loved it, nice...grt, man...go ahead and explore your life...look at it 360 degrees...u wl b fascinated by ur own discoveries...
Its a nice blog da ... I never though t u had the flavor for writing up such wonderful things ... :-) .. I think as in everybody's case, marriage had made u see world in a mature ( a bit philosophical too :-) )way ...
Do write more ... :-)
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